I've barely posted in the past couple weeks and while I can think of a million reasons why I'm going to go with; Man I was running bad.
Now don't get me wrong I live in Vegas and my live is beyond belief but I finally hit the wall and I hit it hard. To be honest I didn't think it was possible to go on any long bad runs playing $1/2 NL but I was getting my ass kicked. Card dead for weeks along with horrible beats when I did get money in with the best hand both of which led to some iffy decision making and some passive play.
I've always read about pros and bloggers going through bad stretches and how it effects their heads and game but I couldn't totally relate because I hadn't been there. Yes I sure that sucks I thought but how long can it really last and how can it really effect you? My bad run lasted only a month and it was really starting to fuck with my head.
Doubt started creeping in and I find myself playing reactive poker which we all know is losing poker. When I really broke it down though the bad run was mostly due to bad beats. Getting rivered to two, three, and four outers nine out of ten hands with my money all in and I'm thinking what the fuck. Getting thirty-two pocket pairs between sets then losing set over set. Getting priced into draws and missing twenty-five in a row. Seeing AA once every few days and getting it UTG and having everyone fold. Getting KK and losing to AA.
Again, I'm not whining here although maybe I should have but this shit was having an effect on my head. It was almost to the point of why get my money in I'm going to get sucked out anyway. July was just barely a positive month thanks to a couple huge wins in the beginning but I dumped a lot of cash on this bad run in the last few weeks.
So instead of whining and posting about my bad run I've mostly bitched a little to some of my good friends who of course were there for support. I will say this though, when it goes bad it can really go bad. I know I've only gotten a small taste of what running bad feels like and I couldn't imgagine it lasting month after month.
I've had some big winning sessions in the last few days, in of all things online cash games, so hopefully things will get turned around. I made money at the Red Rock on Sunday night so lets hope the live poker game comes back around too. I did win eleven sessions in a row before this slide and I was cautious to post about that too as I didn't want to gloat and now I'm glad I didn't. Losing sucks man.
Stay positive and stay profitable.